May 2008
88 posts
Suffern
is the locale of Carrie Bradshaw’s boyfriend of a season or two, Aidan’s, hick-town country home. Suffern’ is also how I felt the entire duration of the Sex And The City Movie. Don’t get me wrong, the movie still satisfied me here and there… it’s just… I was on my period.
I was in a lot of physical irritation throughout that two hours and thirty...
"Today was a good day." - Ice Cube
Zoo; hot. Practice; sweaty. Life; good. Amal; out of line. Coaches; not that bad. Girls; you can’t rhyme “time” with “game time.”
Just sayin’.
Powderpuff Game 7PM Football Field Yes, I’m a fucking junior, whatever.
Come watch the juniors put up a fight. Come watch me warm the bench.
Kids Are Mean
Excerpts from my “hate book”: I recieved it on the last day of seventh grade and found it in my underwear drawer recently. No one signed their names. This is all copied directly from the book, grammar and spelling included.
to: the bitch named jaime le from your “so-called” friends [front cover]
SOME TIMES ……. YOU MEET “A” BITCH BUT YOU ONLY...
"50 Things" You'll Be Glad You Read About College →
(via ardor) For my soon-to-be-college-friends, for my college friends, for people who should’ve been college friends.
India.Arie - Heart Of The Matter Originally by Don...
Sometimes,
when I’m at work, I want to spit in everyone’s drinks.
Sometimes,
when I go to school, I want to vomit on everyone.
Most of the time,
when I’m driving, I just want to ram into another car. Not to die or injure myself. Just to release some pent up aggression.
Conversation
I just spent 40 minutes to an hour with my Dad discussing various issues in our lives branching from the subject of my former* sister.
This blog, and any words that I can muster up to describe my father, would never be able to do him justice. I just want to emphasize that my heart is full of love and admiration for the man that gave me my life’s blood. This conversation/argument/lecture...
He Took a Polaroid Every Day, Until the Day He... →
Jamie Livingston, a New York-based photographer and filmmaker, took a polaroid every day for 18 years, including the day of his death. Through these photos you have visual accounts about his life, his job, his hobbies, his wedding, and his relationship with cancer. It’s moving. The site with the actual photos is down due to heavy traffic, but the link above suffices.
Fuck Powderpuff
I’ve been to every practice excluding the days I have work. I have done what they told me to, I’ve actually tried on most days. I’ve shown up to practices where even the coaches were a fucking no-show. What the fuck is this shit?!
I hate Casey with every fiber of my being. I tried to be nice for the last few practices. I’ve indulged in his every whim, listened to his...
“Did you know that I was Bruce Lee’s and Jimi Hendrix’s love child?”
– James, my younger brother
Reckless Spending
I’m sitting in my underwear contemplating if my $130 worth of purchases were worth the physical labor I put in for two weeks to recieve that money.
I keep telling myself that I won’t spend my paychecks anymore, that those 3 shirts, pair of jeans, and skirt was something I had put on the back burner a few months ago when I wasn’t a workin’ lady.
Let’s face it. That...
By The Way
I stopped by Michael’s party last night for his birthday. Played half a round of King’s Cup, threw one ping pong at a game of Beer Pong that wasn’t even mine, played Guitar Hero in solitude, got bored out of my mind, and left at 10:30 to go find something better to do. I think it would’ve been okay if I didn’t hate everyone there so much. I think the recurring...
“The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that...”
– Albert Camus (via lenachen)
My Clock Stopped At 7:44
Let’s just say there was a hell of a confusion when I got up from my nap just now.
8AM Wake-Up Call
and I get out at 8:45AM. School by 9AM. Home by 10AM.
Tammy did a shotty ass job at calling the girls, so about five showed up total. And only two coaches. If you count Steven as a coach.
I sat there and waited while blowing on my Whistle Pop and getting teased with dirty jokes.
Since I can’t sleep anymore, I’m going to go look for something productive to achieve. Like...
Mental Trauma
living in this environment.
Out Of Line
I hated myself today. It wasn’t enough that I haven’t been a good friend, sister, daughter, student, person; I had to go and upset someone who means a lot more to me than anyone will in this lifetime. And over something completely dispensable. She clearly had a bad day, and I had a fuss over something material and unnecessary. I’m not sure if I upset her or belittled her...
Practice
At practice today I had to stand in front of o-line to distract them. What else is there to do but continuous pelvic thrusting?
I found out one of the coaches was insinuating dirty thoughts with the motions he repeated behind me.
Yeah.
He was air humping me while I was dancing and I wasn’t aware.
Mira Mesa High School, you are a dirty place.
I Got A New Phone (Again)
I will now be answering my phone with “who dis be?” as opposed to “hello” or “moshi moshi”.
Don’t be offended.
I’m sad. No more “mini computer”/TI-83/”Blueberry”.
Irrelevant To Everything In Life And Not Really...
I’ve always been annoyed when I had a racerback tank on with my bra straps peeking out on the ends of the shirt.
I solved this dilemma when I went to Victoria Secret a few months back. I relied on that purchase everytime I wore anything sleeve-less from that day forward. Mark helped me pick out the color. It was good times.
I made a discovery today dressing for work. The bra that I...
Girlfriends Of Mine Who Acquire Boyfriends Of...
Y: what're you doing tomorrow afterschool, going home to have sex with your crybaby?
X: oh god. dont put it like that. something more appropriate
Y: going home to make love to your sobbing psychotic possessive stick?
X: hahahahha, thats mean
Y: Physically bonding with your soul mate?!
Tuesday
Is it sad on my part that I have to ditch school every few days to finish up chores and homework I could be doing at night when I leave to go sit at Matt’s house until 2AM to play Rock Band?
Yes.
Yes it is.
Sibling
My sister told me that after looking at a certain picture of me I posted for the public to view on a certain popular social networking site, she laughed hysterically and couldn’t stop.
And I quote: “I think its your facial expression..you look so.. nice… like there isn’t a drop of meanness in you.”
I don’t know what to take from that.
Yeah
I’ve decided I shouldn’t hate people. I think my whole life so far has been leading me down the path to becoming a misanthrope, and I’m determined to reverse that.
I did spend the entire day hating on various people, however. Paradox. But it’s cool. I’ve mended my ways. I’m a lover.
I didn’t even want to beat Casey up today at practice.
Yeah.
...
You Have Got To Be Shitting Me
Now this is just plain ridiculous!
I’m tired of this fucking high school and fucking dumbass underclassman fucking jocking my steez and shit.
Especially when it’s not even something worth it to imitate.
Geezus Christ, I need to them to leave my life.
I Ran Into Dan, Jason, Lagda Downtown
Lagda: Oh yeah, graduation's coming soon isn't it.
Jamie: Yeah, yeah it is. Too bad I'm a junior.
Lagda: Oh shit, I forgot you were only a junior! (followed by derisive laughter)
I Had Plans To Go To The Movies With Madonna And...
Jamie: i told my dad that the russian thinks you're dating him
Jamie: and i'm going as a contradiction to that theory
Jamie: i said i'm going as a form of civil service
Jamie: to the American people.
Madonna: oh god
Madonna: you're full of bullshit
“A cynic is a pessimist… with a sense of humor.”
– Ryan
Pernice Brothers - Clear Spot released in 1998
My...
“It made me realize how important it is to pull yourself out of the familiar. If...”
– Lolliblog
Gallivanting
I found out today that I ridiculously suck at Chess. After three consecutive pitiful loses to Kevin Cabardo, I gave up and told him I’m going to do some Chess studyin’ and would come back to defeat him. He told me if I didn’t I would have to lick his toes. I told him if I did he would have to speak in public, to strangers, everyday, for the rest of his life. For those who...
7 Insane Conspiracies That Actually Happened →
(via azspot)
For them history buffs that frequent my blog. Yes. Matt. I’m talking to you.
Sleep Deprivation
So completely and totally out of it. Completely. I bought gas earlier, gave the man cash, and stood there waiting for something. That was after I entered the Shell Store without looking at my gas pump number and parking so damn close to the white pole that I couldn’t open my door.
At work I dropped, safe to say, everything. I made wrong drinks. I blanked out and dumped Whey into the...
Swimsuit
Persuasion, persistence, and extra forces (namely, Misa and Dad) got this en-route to my front porch.
Welcome back, summer.
Thanks Mom.
You Know You're Addicted To The Internet When...
You come home after a long night of standing, sitting, watching, eventual deafening, complaining, irritation, desperate need of a bathroom, and other things you whined about but can’t remember now, and the first thing you do is sit down on your computer and check your Tumblr, Myspace, Hotmail, and Gmail.
Pathetic.
Dressed Not To Impress
On days where I go to shows, I make it a point to wear something I wouldn’t mind losing. Or getting dirty. Or getting sweaty. Or easy to take off [insert winky emoticon here]. Just kidding.
If you read various blogs connected to mine, i.e. Stacy Wilkinson, Mariah Santiago, Ann Paty; you’ll see one thing prevalent in all of them: they’re thrilled to see RILO KILEY TONIGHT!!!!...
Possessed?
Today I went into my brother’s room to tell him to view the link I had sent him. He was lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling, wide eyes. Two second pause, no response.
“James.” … “James.” … “James…….?”
Smack on the knees. “James.” Repeated slaps on the thigh. “James.”
He has to be faking. I...
Mo' Money, Mo' Problems
Shoooot, I’m about to kill someone at Wells Fargo.
I went to buy something at Vons today. It was only five bucks. I’m absolutely out of money. Cash money, that is. So I’s be like, “Aiigh, I’ll just straight swipe my debit card.” Little did I know, Wells Fargo had made that impossible long before I put that baby into use.
My pin’s...
CSU Schools Quickly Coming To A Close
Which means some of the homies will be able to kick back and spend their time leisurely again. Usually this is when I mentally check out just because everyone around me has… but I think this year, it’s extremely necessary for me to check in.
I haven’t been mentally stimulated all year, and it has resulted it the first D of my life. I need to bring it up. I need motivation. I...
“Guys like me because I’m like a man and they want to sit with me and talk...”
– Friend, pretty much the greatest thing I’ve ever heard come out of a woman’s mouth.
Future Politician
Ralph Hardy, a 13 year old from Newark, Texas confessed to ordering an extra credit card from his father’s existing credit card company, and took his friends on a $30,000 spending spree, culminating in playing “Halo” on an Xbox with a couple of hookers in a Texas motel. … The escort girls who were released without charge, told the arresting officers something was up when the kids said they...
Haha
Jamie: i don't need to look to know, all my writing evokes good reactions
Mohammed: that last sentence you wrote made my eye twitch
Verbal Contract
Bossman told me I’ll get promoted in two months. Is it possible for me to go one day of work without those little bitches lecturing me. Geezus christ, I know what I’m doing. And if I did something wrong, it’s because I watched you fuckers do it and I followed accordingly. Monkey see, monkey do. Yes, I’m aware that I just compared myself to a monkey. Might as well be...
Question
Is it ridiculous to go out and buy a CD when you’ve got the whole thing on your computer?
I’ve always been one for hard copies.
Yeah, I’m going to buy it.
“it” = We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things by God a.k.a. Jason Mraz
“My mother told me I’ll need it when I die, so I’ve been keeping...”
– Kevin, when I asked him why he follows time, since it’s completely arbitrary. “I’m going to pretend you said genie because I do not want that title,” when I told him he was a genius.